I read this from a fellow blogger and it does put life into perspective. Haven't most of us been there at some time of another but without this fatal consequence?
LotF, you'll manage through tomorrow and my thoughts, along with many others I should think, will be with you. How dare I judge you when perhaps I too have affected the lives of others?
All I can do is wish you strength. Guilt is something we chose to bear so please discard it. Your friend made his choices not you.